Opening the body is a massive risk.
A holy Saturday reflection on what a body even is.
Do you have any idea what your body is comprised of in the spiritual realm? Your body is the quantum field of your ancestors– all they carried around in their fear and hatred, all they were addicted to and all their unmet hopes and dreams. The weight of this energy is an enormous drain on the psyche. But we have the Holy Spirit, the Divine Wind regardless. That’s very good news that in any moment, no matter the state of the body and soul, the Spirit is at the ready to respond with insight, direction, comfort, and peace (and much more! the list is endlessly creative).
In my experience, trauma- personal, ancestral and collective is part of our agreement with our Creator in how to live a life. The charge of trauma in our nervous system reverberates through us and is part of nature. It’s a brilliant survival mechanism by our brilliant Artistic Director. Learning how to understand how we are wired and our potential is the task of our lifetime. We learn beginner’s mind and patience. We trust we have the essence at center of being made by, for and with Love. All our ‘sin’ is rooted in major and minor wounds from this life and the lives of our people. We sit on the shoulders of the great and the pitiful.
Jesus spends time with the pitiful. Do we know how to spend time with them? We start in the outer world by being of service with those who break our hearts- their earthly suffering so great it breaks us wide open. And from this softening of the heart, the Light begins to address our cracks. We are the divine fragrance from which the cracked vessel pours.It’s our vision which needs adjusting and our systems which need calming.
Regulate the nervous system and find the kingdom of God. Inner life will begin to overtake outer reality and by continuing to venture within we begin to see with our spiritual vision, our God goggles. Oh, here’s where I am pitiful and powerless and I was responding like Pharaoh. Oh, here’s where I was feeling jealous and lusty, I must meet Jesus’ frequency in order to heal. If I continue to block my healing with my stubbornness, there’s not much He can do. For we must be in accord. We are One after all. It is our solemn responsibility to agree with who Abwoon says we are.
Innocent.
Our sin is part of our Tikkun Olam– our agreement to take on the ‘filth’ that invaded a perfect garden and co-redeem this not so god -forsaken place. This is where the demons come in. When we draw close to the wound, we come to awaken to the cast of characters at play in us. You could call them chakra demons because they seem to align perfectly with our seven gifts of the spirit when redeemed. The battle is real until it shifts to more of a dance. With the agency and authority we have in Christ, we learn to train them up to listen to our voice, as we return to our Bema seat. The body becomes the vehicle by which we move energy and settle back in our center, where eternal shalom abides.
To me, Jesus Himself teaches us how to live the one life, the one path through the desert and wilderness, meeting Satan and learning how to be a warrior in mind, body and spirit. We discern our Shepherd’s voice. It’s part of Yah Weh’s instructions to Moses– I love and know my people; now, I want them to know me.
We must trust it’s a two-way communication. I know I had no way of trusting the wild nature of God in a body operating from a deep base of unprocessed anger, fear, resentment and unforgiveness. It’s all one fabric of fear and it permeates every layer of how we operate – mostly subconsciously. Until we awaken and remain alert.
If Christians dont want to do this path as I’ve laid out, they don’t have to. Not everyone is called to break generational curses and be in their body so deeply. But in my experience, in order to fully embody the soul, we must walk Jesus’ path to the cross and wait on resurrection. Talitha Koumi, He announces! Arise little lamb.
He calls up our innocence and our original goodness, we live from this place now. We live from Anahata- the heart. This beautiful Sanskrit word means unstruck or before the wound of separation, any harm at all.
Sure, we are impacted by the world and it’s filth– maybe next week or next month. But now we have tools to transform what we’ve encountered. Not demons, but suffering. Not anything to fear because our nervous system is now rooted in a state of love. We have shifted from survival up to thriving. We have learned how to ask for and receive our daily bread.
We learned how to harness a bit of the wind in order to heal. We learned to trust the dissonance in us.
We must go through many tribulations in order to enter the Kingdom Acts 14:22
Emmanuel God is with us. There is nowhere we could hide from the depths of this sacrificial love. He’s the gift and the giver of that gift as my friend Jen likes to say. Somehow, mysteriously as I lean into my practices of discomfort- cold showers, weight training, sprints, breath practice I have come to trust the dark face of God, the feminine yin. Somehow, quite mysteriously when the dark night of the soul visits me, I am a ‘yes’ and although I am terrified, there is a part of me who understands what John meant in saying
The light shines in the darkness, and the dark has not overcome it
Open the body if you dare. You’ll come to be that Kamikaze yogi Christ created you to be. Knowing your warrior nature, your Imago Dei. You’ll be so proud of yourself and your walk in step with the mission to ‘colonize the earth with the life of heaven” as N.T. Wright so beautifully stated. The great commission to being all about God’s big comeback.